I find myself wondering if that might have been best. But such thinking is futile. I did sell the house. I did stay in Cambridge. And we did stay together, if peculiarly. My life become one of memory and fantasy. Memories of days, nights, experiences, with Julie and Anne, and other women, some of whose names I could not even remember, some of whom I was surprised to realize I had known twenty or thirty years earlier, were incomparably more vivid than Lynn’s infrequent, wraithlike presence. I masturbated to those memories considerably more than I had sex with my wife. And I masturbated to rented videos, seeking out those which featured women who bore some resemblance to Julie and Anne and Lynn in bondage or being sodomized. And I desultorily cruised the Internet, occasionally sending out the images of Lynn, but not often. I did not take any new pictures of her. That was far beyond our sex life, which consisted of my turning her sleeping body on its side in the mornings on those. Losing Pat was the darkest of dark times. Alone, I might not have had the will to live.They never let me think I was alone in the world. It was like I was supposed to love Carlita and I was supposed to love Dave and I was supposed to receive their love in return.Carlita saw to it that I made love with Dave the morning after the tragedy. I am not sure, never will be, but I think that is when we three decided to be married together.Carlita and I actually formalized it on bended knee. I love Carlita's sense of propriety.Carlita calls the days that followed The Great Sadness. I didn't know what to do ... what else I was supposed to do. I tried staying occupied, but when I slowed down, I realized that I wasn't going end up on the sofa with my head in Pat's lap, her fingers stroking through my hair. That's what got me started with her. She was so gentle, her actions transmitted an air of love and caring. I was destined to fall.During The Great Sadness I spent days with Carlita and evenings.
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